Who I am / Who am I?

So as you see I'm new here, and most of you don't know me.
Now I can start (maybe I should start...) telling you who I am. But... I won't.
Because that's my problem I guess. I don't even know myself who I am.
There are so many people telling me who I am supposed to be, and what I am absolutely not should be like. But I tried it al, I tried to please people, to hate people and to love people. But why should I try? Why would I make it hard for myself, why should I try to control my feelings? Well it's rubbish, feelings come and go and you just can't control them, the only thing I can do is write them down, and that's why I started al this. See this as one Outburst of thoughts, feelings, en emotions when you read it. And I hope you'll love it as much as I do.